Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Alcohol

Over the past few months, I've been trying to lessen my alcohol intake. I don't drink more than four times a week anymore, and I try not to drink more than my weight in beer (or vodka, or scotch, or anything else) in one night.

It was hard, at first, but now, I'm glad I did it. I can survive a week without looking for alcohol, and, sometimes, I can limit myself to just a few drinks.

I'm surprised that I don't miss it as much as I thought I would. :)

La lang. :)

posted by ritz_therese @ 2:07 AM 1 Comments

Friday, August 05, 2005

Emotionally Unstable

I refuse to acknowledge my panic impulse. I think that this is the main reason why I'm so emotionally unstable.
I guess I need to explain.
The only time I even mention how scared I am of the fucking bar exams is when I make a blog entry about it. Whenever my family and friends ask me about it, I grunt something in reply and change the subject. I try really hard not to talk about it. I don't really care anymore if I seem cranky because I don't wanna hear what they have to say about it.
On the other hand, sometimes I get upset because I feel like people don't think that what I'm doing is important. There are times, when I'd feel insignificant. Ang bilis ko magtampo, but, at the same time, I try not to say anything, because I don't want the people around me to think I'm being an extremely unreasonable bitch. So, I deal with it by being cranky or making sarcastic remarks. After A while naman, I end up feeling guilty about it, so I try to make it up to the people I snap at by becoming overly chatty.
As a result, everything gets all bottled up. I try to be around people as much as I can. I meet up with my friends when I have time to spare and I try to keep myself really busy. When I'm at home I try to distract myself by watching TV/DVDs. I try to avoid being idle because when I give myself a chance to think (or even feel), I realize how miserable I am.
Now, can you understand how unstable I'm becoming?
Fuck this shit! :(

posted by ritz_therese @ 10:12 AM 0 Comments

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

1 month to go!

Oh... crap... It's August 1 (stating the obvious). I only have one fucking month before the bloody bar exams. I am NOWHERE near ready...

Patay na... :(

posted by ritz_therese @ 7:29 AM 0 Comments