anger management
I lost my temper a few hours ago.
I almost hit my dad, but my big younger brother yelled at me to stop. We kept yelling at each other until he started crying. I think I tried to throw something at him.
My mom and my baby brother couldn't stop us. Actually, they couldn't stop me. My mom started crying because she doesn't like seeing us fight. My baby brother started crying because he got scared. Thank God, my sisters weren't home. I yelled at one of my sisters when she called, though..
Now, I'm crying and I feel like shit because I know what I did was horrible. I mean, who else can fuck things up like this. I texted my brother to apologize, he says he knows I didn't mean what I said and did, but he admits that he's still pissed at me. I can't look my mom in the eye, because I feel so guilty about making her cry.
I feel like shit.
I feel like shit.
Bored!
The bar has come and gone and, now, due to a glitch in my employment, I can't start working yet.
It was great, at first. I got to read and watch TV and DVDs and shit. I've also been able to go out with my friends, without having to think about what time I need to get up the next day.
After a while, things just started to get boring.
I guess I'm just too used to being extremely active and busy. I can't stand the thought of just staying home for an indeterminate period. I'll go crazy!
I really have to start working soon!
