Emotionally Unstable
I refuse to acknowledge my panic impulse. I think that this is the main reason why I'm so emotionally unstable.I guess I need to explain.
The only time I even mention how scared I am of the fucking bar exams is when I make a blog entry about it. Whenever my family and friends ask me about it, I grunt something in reply and change the subject. I try really hard not to talk about it. I don't really care anymore if I seem cranky because I don't wanna hear what they have to say about it.
On the other hand, sometimes I get upset because I feel like people don't think that what I'm doing is important. There are times, when I'd feel insignificant. Ang bilis ko magtampo, but, at the same time, I try not to say anything, because I don't want the people around me to think I'm being an extremely unreasonable bitch. So, I deal with it by being cranky or making sarcastic remarks. After A while naman, I end up feeling guilty about it, so I try to make it up to the people I snap at by becoming overly chatty.
As a result, everything gets all bottled up. I try to be around people as much as I can. I meet up with my friends when I have time to spare and I try to keep myself really busy. When I'm at home I try to distract myself by watching TV/DVDs. I try to avoid being idle because when I give myself a chance to think (or even feel), I realize how miserable I am.
Now, can you understand how unstable I'm becoming?
Fuck this shit! :(
posted by ritz_therese @ 10:12 AM
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