Thursday, March 30, 2006

Oh... God......

I can't keep my mind off the upcoming release of the bar results.

The anticipation is killing me..

I feel like every breath I take ends in a sigh (or a gasp) and my internal organs feel like they're all knotted up.

Everyone keeps asking me how I feel about it and I honestly don't know what to say..

I'm all messed up. I'm both scared and excited.

Oh well... Whether it comes out tomorrow or Friday, NO MATTER WHAT THE RESULTS MIGHT BE, I won't have to go through an anxiety-filled weekend....

Oh, God.... Please help me...

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Not getting enough sleep

These past few weeks, my late nights haven't been ending at night anymore. I think I should refer to these gimiks as "early mornings" instead.

Take, for example, last Saturday. My friends and I left Embassy at 4am, thinking that we could just grab a quick bite before going home. Well, guess what? I ended up getting home at 6am. I had tons of fun, but I was so tired after that, I couldn't even appreciate the sunrise on my way home.

The problem is that, as tired as I might be, I can't force myself to stay in bed after 930am. No matter how late I go to sleep, I need to be out of bed before 10am. If I try to go back to sleep, I wake up 10 minutes later with a really bad headache....

Haaaay... I wonder how long it will take me to make up for the past few weeks.... :(

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Friday, March 24, 2006

Numb

I thought the numbness meant that I was ok.

I guess not.

It just took a tiny and insignificant reminder to make me feel again.

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Monday, March 20, 2006

Please....

A part of me is grateful that the waiting is almost over...

Yet, another part me is growing more anxious as that fateful day approaches....

Oh.... God.... Please....

Help me...

posted by ritz_therese @ 2:37 PM 0 Comments

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

I miss....

the friends I don't get to see anymore;

having time to think about myself;

fitting into my "thin clothes";

having a boyfriend;

and my sanity.

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Friday, March 10, 2006

Just Friends

I love my guy friends - BUT- that's exactly what they are: FRIENDS.

Sometimes, being "one of the boys" just sucks...

I'm so sick of having to make an effort to show guys that I'm a girl....

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Monday, March 06, 2006

Best Ex

This is for you (because you asked nicely).

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Before everything got crazy, we were friends. Really good ones, in fact. You were my boyfriend's friend, I was your friend's girlfriend.

Then, we started spending too much time together...

Your friend and I broke up and I needed room to breathe. So, I ran as far away from you as I could.

But, somehow, you caught up with me... And we tried to be together...

I loved you more than I possibly thought I could, but, later on, I realized that this wasn't enough. Our fights turned ugly and we'd just alternate between being crazy about each other and being at each other's throats...

I had to end it...

No matter what you might have thought at that time, I didn't leave you because I didn't love you anymore. Things just got too intense.. And we just couldn't stop hurting each other...

We hated each other for a while. But one night, more than a year after that horrid breakup, we started talking again... And we realized that we'd forgiven each other and that we hadn't "killed" our friendship...

So, here we are now...

In spite of all the pain and the suffering we put each other through, we had a lot of good times and we'll always have really great memories. Hey, I honestly think that we were meant to be together for a while, so we could learn enough about each other to be the kind of friends we are now.

Despite the fact that we still disagree about a lot of stuff, you're still my best ex... Nothing will change that... And I'm glad we managed to work something out...

I may not be able to promise to make you ninong of my kids, but, trust me, you'll always be their tito.

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

...

We keep asking for freedom...

but very few of us understand the responsibility that comes with it...

posted by ritz_therese @ 7:11 AM 0 Comments